Some days you just have to get out of God’s way. I do that quite often. I mean I get in God’s way, a lot. When I do – I can tell because God has a way of showing me quite boldly just how things are spinning out of control. You see if God is doing His thing – NOTHING is ever messed up or out of control. But, when I get in his way, all hell breaks loose and my life gets real ‘stressed out’ to say the least.
So as of yesterday – I am so out of the picture of messing up God’s plan and I am so into letting Him/God do what he wants to do with my nephew, Dustin. This has been one hellacius week of legal matters and family arguments.
Dustin has decided that at 19 he can do what he wants and he would like to live by himself in his own apartment. This gives him the freedom to have the visitors he wants and not have to have Aunt “Lucy” and Uncle’s permission at anytime. This is where I have been in God’s way because I have been trying to protect him from his stupid-ness. He isn’t ready, even at 19, to live on his own financially or mentally as he has so much to learn in the ways of the world. But – I was trying to protect him from himself and it is obvious that Dustin needs to learn a few lessons. Stupid-ness is my word, but it applies to “Stupid is as stupid does” as said by Forest Gump. I guess Dustin has “one more trip around the mountain” of life’s lessons, at least that seems to be what is happening.
He told us that he can’t “trust or believe” us because we are too nice and no body is really that nice. He thinks we must have some underlying thoughts of things evil to do to him and he just wants to be on his own so that he and his “fiancée” can be together whenever they want. His Gramma (my Mother) also told him that if we have to many rules, she would help him get an apartment so he could see his girlfriend. After that underminding comment we realized we had been set up and totally were in a no-win situation. We told him we agree that he does indeed need to be on his own, if he is listening to her instead of us. Also, if he wants to go out and freely sin – it can NOT be with our blessings. We do wish him well and hope that he can achieve success on his own –but we are now out of the picture and we have put him into God’s hands, so to speak.
This is why I say we have stepped out of God’s way – it is so hard to try and do it all and then realize that WE are the problem and to “step left” and just “Let God Handle it.” So “We” have – and I ask God’s forgiveness for the trouble I have caused him by blocking his obvious teaching techniques. Have you ever been there – I sure am so sadden, but I know it is best and God has released me from this endeavor. Thank you Lord for the lessons you have taught me during this trying time. And thank you Lord for continuing to Love me even when I mess up and get in your way.
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